I taught myself how to cry today
But The pain was so unbearable that I tried to wipe them away
These stupid tears
I fought so hard to stop them from falling ,
Regardless they fell.
The day you left
Small beads of sweat studded your skin like diamonds,
Then they broke and trickled down.
Escaped below the recessed line of your spine
your lips were cracked and you wore that shirt I hated.
You forgot to say goodbye.
I think my heart stopped working
I laid on the kitchen floor that night
Pressed up against the cold ground, because I wanted to hear my heart beat
I fell asleep there and woke with dry tears.
I made a panda out of socks and a sweater
I dreamt that you pulled him to pieces .
The next morning I couldnt find him, it took me days before I realized that
He was never really there.
I dont think like pandas anymore.